'Looking at life, like how did I get it wrong, Life’s too short, gotta live it long. If you wanna build your love up, put your hate down, that’s the only way to live. Turnin’ negatives to positives.'
So lately im all hooked up with young homie by Chris Rene. Also I've been having a sudden breakdown. I'm just not too sure what is really going on with me. Things are just not too clear enough for me to understand. Its like dafuq? Maybe I'm missing someone in life? Still thought about the conversation I had with the boys and girls? I'm just not too sure. But what Im sure enough is I miss that text buddy. I know i didnt treat you right but Im just sorry. That is just not me. Weirdo, thats what it is.
I guess things are not going right for me. April is coming to an end. Lets just say not to a good end. With tears I have almost every night. How is that even possible to be good right? Unappreciated. No where to go. Thats about it I guess. That unappreciated feeling will always be there. Or shall I say my self-esteem is running low back again? Argh, how is that even possible? It took me years to regain that and now its slowly slipping away.
I do know where I stand. And where I should be after this. Things haven't been in place. And I feel soo lost. Lets just say that everything is in a big mess now. Im too tired cleaning up all these mess. How complicated does it want to be after this? I'm not too sure if I could handle all this shits.
I'm tired and someday those breakdown moment gonna be a hardcore one. Le sigh.
